independent study

Im on independent study, got expelled,
took some methadone...
but thats old news..
so i had testing to day
uuuuuuuhhhhh
history and english,english is easy
history and me we'll i make history i dont learn about it.
so i probably did really bad
but oh well
so i am on this one group, Goodreads.com it is the most ahmazing website ever
no joke i have met plenty of people and we talk about random stuff
yep im a nerd, but im the coolest nerd you will ever meet
if your reading this, just an fyi
this is like a diary to me so i really dont expect anyone to read it
back to school...
i have this friend Destiny we got expelled togethor
but my parents dont want me talking to her...
she is my best friend so i cant listen to them
Destinys mom died like 7 to 8 monthes ago
and at that time i lost both my grandpas one i was becoming close to
and the other was just always there so we helped eachother out
we did a pretty good job keeping eachother up until other people began to rip us both to shreds
so we took methadone to i guess surpress our thoughts, someone told,
we got in trouble. my parents put me in counciling and i was diagnosed with depression
but i bet if destiny was put into counciling she would be diagnosed with way worse depression
;\
she lives with her step dad and he wont put her in there
she needs counciling and i guess ill be acting as her counciler,
problem is im not a professional i can do my best but what if listening to her,
pretty much soaking up her depression makes me more depressed?
my moms worried about this happening but im not going to let her ruin her life i mean shes my best friend and you only know if someones your true friend if you can overcome what we have and still look out for eachother without blaiming eachother...
if your reading this let me ask you a question
why regret something if you cant fix it, if you cant change what happens...
the answer is you dont,
You over come it, its just an obsticale in life
its a lesson why regret it?

word of advice:live life with no regrets

<3 - Rebecka

the start

hey, if your reading this you may or may not know me,
My name is Rebecka Helmick but my parents and some friends call me bucky,
its a long story haha so im 13 i love to read, write, and chat.
i live in an unknown place of wonders... just kidding i wish!!
i live with mmy mom and my dad me and my parents are actually really close,
i have 2 sister, 1 brother.
1 older sitser,courtney, we get along ahmazingly lately
1 younger sister,hailey, if you are absolutly sure you have met a demon spawn then you have met her we dont get along.
and my older brother,Jacob, we get along at times.
my life is a little complicated but we'll get into that in another post,
so i live with everyone i jut named and sometimes other people,
but once again we'll get into that another time.
i go to community school, 1 time a week (independent study)
ill tell you about it sometime,
i love concerts,
animals(most of the time),
my friends,
and my family,(family is who you choose not who your born to)
so now you've heard about me, i dont sound all that complicated... yet
<3-Rebecka